The relief I experienced on Thursday evaporated on Friday.
This is what happened:
7 pm : I gave Jaya the 2 mL milk dose; she complained of stinging under her tongue which is not unusual so I was not concerned.
7:15: She sneezed 5 times & sounded slightly congested.
7:30: Her congestion seemed to be worsening; I gave her an antihistamine.
7:40: She complained of a slight tummy ache which subsided after a few minutes.
7:50: Jaya seemed to be getting even more congested. She complained of her nose feeling completely blocked. She started to scratch the palms of her hands. She coughed. I noticed faint but large red splotches on her legs, chest and face.
I got her epi-pen out ready to administer it. Peter explained to her what was going to happen but I wavered – not wanting to make a mistake.
I ran downstairs to where I had three expired epi-pens and I quickly practiced my technique on an orange. I ran back upstairs.
8:10: I gave her the epi-pen junior (0.15 mg) in her left leg. Jaya was saying “What happened? What happened? What did you do?” She said she did not feel any pain in her leg just pressure so she did not know if I had given her the injection or not. Peter was on the phone with 911 requesting an ambulance.
Almost immediately after administering the epi-pen Jaya felt better. Her congestion was relieved and the coughing subsided. The splotches remained.
We reached the hospital via ambulance by 8:45 pm. Her blood pressure, heart rate and oxygen saturation were monitored by the paramedics from the time they arrived at our home until we were handed over to the nursing staff at the hospital.
Jaya and I stayed at the hospital for 2 hours. She was completely asymptomatic by the time the ER doctor saw us. We were discharged. Peter and I monitored her throughout the night and thankfully she remained asymptomatic.
Since last night I have been struggling with many different feelings. Guilt for putting her through this. Sadness that it is not going smoothly for her. Fear that she will continue to have reactions if we continue. Anger at the existence of food allergies.
Most of all, I am feeling unsure about whether to continue.